Based on the church volunteers she was still alert after her fall but because they heard a loud sound during her fall, they asked her to go hospital but my mum said she was fine and wanted to go home. Think after a few minutes they found that she was not as she said, they called for ambulance. She reached the hospital at around 8pm and then she went into coma and never wake up. Doctor diagnosed that there is a blood clot in her head.
Doctor said that the chances of her survival is minimal. She can either make through the surgery but will become a vegetarian. If she don't go through she might not make it through too. We asked our Dad's decision and he rejected the operation option.
But by 10pm, Doctor told us that her blood clot in her brain had spread to her whole brain and it too late for surgery. And he also said that she had been in life support after she went into coma.
That night, i stayed and talked to her there was not respond. Her heart beat was between 99 - 107. At 3am, i went to see her again, her heart beat up to 110 - 119. Ask the nurse, she said it normal.
On 20/12/2010, i received a called from my younger brother. He told me that Mum breathing a bit strange and Doctor told him that Mum might not make it through today. This is the 1st time i heard him cried to me. As a big Sis to him, i can't breakdown in front of him, so i told him to go talked to Mum. Let her know that we are there. And also asked him to tell Dad about it.
20/12/2010, I was the last to arrived again because my husband had to settle his work and i took a lift from my cousin. When i reached ICU, i was shocked to see Mum's breathing so hard and her heart beat was 160 - 179. It too fast and i knew that she was going to leave us soon. At 11.30am, while i was talking to her, stroking her forehead and i was surprise to see that her tears flew down from her closed eye lid. I breakdown then, kept calling her to waking up, telling her that it time for lunch. And she missed her dinner last night. But she just wouldn't opened her eyes. And her tears kept flowing out.
Don't know why, i turned my attention to her feet and hands. I saw that her fingers tips were not as pink as last night. I started to massage her hands and then feet. I told my Sis to do the same for her too. But it still the same no matter how we massage it.
Then i started noticing her heart beat, it had dropped to 99 - 106 at around 12pm. Then my 2 Bros came back from lunch and asked my father, my Sis and me to go for lunch. When we step out of ICU, we saw my Mum's 2ND bro, and so we went back to ICU again.
I stood at my Mum's left side which was closed to the heart beat monitor. Once again, i don't know why i kept looking at the monitor. My uncle was there for only a few minutes and her heart beat suddenly drop from 99 to 70, i knew something was wrong , so i started to called my Mum. And it jumped back to 99 - 105 but it dropped back again to 60 and then to 50. I quickly asked my younger Bro to call the nurse to come in. Just that few minutes, i panicked and i kept calling her but the heart beat just went lower and lower and then to zero.........
It was when the nurse making her bed straight that i saw her last tears coming from her eyes.
Her death was pronounced at 12.43pm on 20/12/2010.
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Did we just finished her funeral. Everything was a blur to me. Today she had left us for 24 days.
In my heart, it always telling me that she was on holiday and she will be back someday.............. but i know it impossible..............
This is the last pic that we had together. She kept looking at me in my costume and smile.
This will be our last family photo. It their 35th anniverary.
This is the 1st and the last time that we can celebrate their anniversary.
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