18 Nov 2010

18 Nov 2010

I wrote this before my mum passed away in Dec 2010. Only less than a month and she just gone.


Today they are having school party and also the end of this year school term. I only let them attended this year party cos the previous years too lazy to prepare food lor....hahaha... This year I cooked cocktail hotdogs for them to bring to school. Easy and not messy....hahaha....

Very fast, next year Benjy will be going to Pri 1 at Zhenghua School and Ashley K2. Wow... now one is 6yrs and the other is 5yrs old. Times really flies.....so fast... don't have a moment to slow down. They are growing way too fast and really missed the times when they are just a baby in my arms.

Looking at the post, i didn't update for a very very long time because this whole year alot of things had happened. Mostly sad sad moments....

My kids just lost their parental grandmother. She died of liver cancer. From the time when she discovered till the time she passed away is only a very short time of 7 months. I don't know how long they can still remember her. Every time when they saw her picture, they will always said that they missed her very much. Her memory for them is very short, just 4-5 yrs. They haven't had the chance to know her better and she just gone. Till now i still can't accept that she is no longer with us. (just thinking of her make me cry again...)

I lost another uncle again. His was my father elder brother. He too lost his life to cancer. After my MIL passed away his health was very bad and his last only 3-4 months. It another shocked to me and i was so depressed during all this happening. I already lost one aunt and my 2nd uncle, both to cancer too , now he. I really don't have a very open mind for the future to come.

During all this was happening, we found out that my mum is sick. She had myelofibrosis. It a bone marrow disease which causes her marrow not producing enough blood in her body. She is very skinny now, though she is eating well. She needs blood transfusion every time she went for check up. She is taking some TCM medicine now, hope it helps her abit and relief her of any pain in her legs.

This year still got one and half months to go. I really hope that everything goes well so that we can welcome 2011.

 Didn't know that another death is happening in a few weeks time. Life is just so unpredictable and so fragile.